Dear kuya,
Hello kuya i just drop by to my office today cause i will get my salary. I suppose to work though but i didn't feel ok since yesterday. I have an upset tummy. and i keep going to the comfort room. It did made me feel weak and my body is aching too. I know i did promise i will put the song today in the blog but i don't have time now. I got to go home a little early that usually Christmas season make the street so crowded. And if i go home late at night i will have a hard time getting a jeepney. I know you will understand. I saw mom crying earlier. She said she's missing you already. She saw the picture i took last Christmas 2 years ago. I don't know what to say to her to ease the pain. I wanna cry too but i try to fight it cause if i do everybody will cry including Mylin. I plan to go to the grocery later to buy the stuff we will cook for the Christmas eve. I still don't know how will our Christmas will be without you. You always enjoy Christmas. Remember we always have fun in Christmas eve even without any gift to each other where still so happy. We plan to cook only a few dish. I don't wanna cook and celebrate like usually. I'm sure we will all miss you on Christmas eve. I hope mom wont cry anymore. It hurt me more when i see her cry. I will make some vcd so we can watch it on Christmas. I am sure we wont go anywhere on Christmas eve we will just stay home. But I'm not sure yet. You know Kyle he might ask to go to the mall. I still didnt feel ok. I can feel my tummy is boiling and cramping. I hope i be ok soon.
I got to end this now Love you bro.
Love,
Shiela
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
I will never say bye!!
Dear kuya,
Hi kuya It was my off yesterday. It suppose to me my off still now. But i agree with my boss about going to work today instead of working half day on the 24th. It will be hard for me to commute if i still work on the 24th. We did met my friend Ron last Saturday. I was with Kyle and his mom. It was fun. Ron brought a very nice remote car for Kyle and a pm3 player for Mylin. I got my PSP too. It look so nice. I do wish your here to see it and to come with us. Yesterday we went to the cemetery. We all went including our cousin Ton-ton. Kyle is with us too he was so excited when we told him we will be visiting you. He was so hurry to dress up. When we go there he keep on screaming your name and his eyes were really searching for you. When we get to your tomb and i told him your there i can see in his eyes that he was so confused. I know his still young and really cant understand. I guess he still wanna see you physically. He become quiet all of a sudden. It was funny cause he even try to knock on your tomb. We just told him your sleeping and cannot be disturb. Thats when he started to play. While where there we saw a rainbow it was so pretty. I imagine that your there looking at us and happy.
I was listening to this song " Bye Bye from Mariah Carey. I love the lyrics. It really make me think about you. I plan to put it here in the blog so we can always listen to it. I guess you will like that too. The lyric said that saying bye is really hard and that we will not say bye to the people who we love. I wont say bye too you bro. I will just say see you later i guess. Cause i know someday we will all be seeing each other again in a better place with god. I suppose to put the music today but i was so busy. So i guess i will do it by tomorrow. I will put the lyrics too.
I really miss you kuya. Every time i am commuting and on a jeep on my way to work i always remember you. Mylin our sister don't really wanna play the food she will cook for the Christmas eve, but i told her she got too. I told her too that you will be sad if theres no food and no celebration. I know Mylin miss you too. I saw her with watery eyes when she heard the song you always listen too when your still here. I still aways wish your still here. you will definitely love to play with my new psp. You always wish to have one when your still here.
Ohhh i got to stop for now. I'm crying already eh! Plus it still to get ready and go home. I love you bro and I really miss you sooo much.
Love,
Shiela
Hi kuya It was my off yesterday. It suppose to me my off still now. But i agree with my boss about going to work today instead of working half day on the 24th. It will be hard for me to commute if i still work on the 24th. We did met my friend Ron last Saturday. I was with Kyle and his mom. It was fun. Ron brought a very nice remote car for Kyle and a pm3 player for Mylin. I got my PSP too. It look so nice. I do wish your here to see it and to come with us. Yesterday we went to the cemetery. We all went including our cousin Ton-ton. Kyle is with us too he was so excited when we told him we will be visiting you. He was so hurry to dress up. When we go there he keep on screaming your name and his eyes were really searching for you. When we get to your tomb and i told him your there i can see in his eyes that he was so confused. I know his still young and really cant understand. I guess he still wanna see you physically. He become quiet all of a sudden. It was funny cause he even try to knock on your tomb. We just told him your sleeping and cannot be disturb. Thats when he started to play. While where there we saw a rainbow it was so pretty. I imagine that your there looking at us and happy.
I was listening to this song " Bye Bye from Mariah Carey. I love the lyrics. It really make me think about you. I plan to put it here in the blog so we can always listen to it. I guess you will like that too. The lyric said that saying bye is really hard and that we will not say bye to the people who we love. I wont say bye too you bro. I will just say see you later i guess. Cause i know someday we will all be seeing each other again in a better place with god. I suppose to put the music today but i was so busy. So i guess i will do it by tomorrow. I will put the lyrics too.
I really miss you kuya. Every time i am commuting and on a jeep on my way to work i always remember you. Mylin our sister don't really wanna play the food she will cook for the Christmas eve, but i told her she got too. I told her too that you will be sad if theres no food and no celebration. I know Mylin miss you too. I saw her with watery eyes when she heard the song you always listen too when your still here. I still aways wish your still here. you will definitely love to play with my new psp. You always wish to have one when your still here.
Ohhh i got to stop for now. I'm crying already eh! Plus it still to get ready and go home. I love you bro and I really miss you sooo much.
Love,
Shiela
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Been a month now
Dear Kuya,
Hi kuya its been a month now since we part. Everybody is missing you already. Specially me and mom. Kyle missing you too he been saying your name often for the past few days now. I guess his wondering where you at. I don't wanna cry today so I'm listening to some rap and dance music. I know you wont like it if i am crying. I always like people happy. You always make people laugh. Thats one thing why you have so many friends. I just talk to your girlfriend today shes online in yahoo messenger right now. So i gave her the link to this blog. She said she been missing you so much. I guess she will always miss you. I always see you been a very sweet guy to her always. There one time you told me you two had an argument. But i felt so guilty about it. I know you always love her. And you did fight for your love for her. Even if your sick you still try your best to take care of her when she was still staying with us.
I don't know if my friend Ron will call me to meet him today. He told me he will call me today. So I'm just waiting. If now i will just stay here in the office and work. I wish your here. I will definitely going to bring you with me so you can meet him.I'm sure you and him will have something in common. Since you both love gadget stuff. And you both always make jokes. Thats one of the reason why i become close to him i guess.
We plan to go to the cementery and visit u tomorrow. It suppose to be today. But i told mom i really got to work. I guess you will understand that. I have so many loans to pay so i got to work.Some of our cousin with go with us tomorrow.
I really miss you kuya. I did cried last night thinking about you before i slept. I can still feel the pain in my heart. And in someway i still wish i do more for you. Sometimes i imagine that my wedding wont be like what i imagine it before. I always dream about it and i always dream you will be there. And that you will be the one of the people who will bring me to the airport. Sometimes i day dream about how you smile or how you look at me. It still break my heart and make me cry. I didn't go to the mall yet since you left. I really don't know how will i feel if i do. I don't know how will i feel too if i go to Angeles Pampanga. Cause it will remind me of you more.
For now i got to go cause i got to go back to work. I know you are happy now in gods hands together with Daddy. No pain and sadness. I wish god allow you to visit us today. Even just in my dreams. I do miss talking to you. and miss your jokes. I love you bro so much.
Love and Missing you,
Shiela
Hi kuya its been a month now since we part. Everybody is missing you already. Specially me and mom. Kyle missing you too he been saying your name often for the past few days now. I guess his wondering where you at. I don't wanna cry today so I'm listening to some rap and dance music. I know you wont like it if i am crying. I always like people happy. You always make people laugh. Thats one thing why you have so many friends. I just talk to your girlfriend today shes online in yahoo messenger right now. So i gave her the link to this blog. She said she been missing you so much. I guess she will always miss you. I always see you been a very sweet guy to her always. There one time you told me you two had an argument. But i felt so guilty about it. I know you always love her. And you did fight for your love for her. Even if your sick you still try your best to take care of her when she was still staying with us.
I don't know if my friend Ron will call me to meet him today. He told me he will call me today. So I'm just waiting. If now i will just stay here in the office and work. I wish your here. I will definitely going to bring you with me so you can meet him.I'm sure you and him will have something in common. Since you both love gadget stuff. And you both always make jokes. Thats one of the reason why i become close to him i guess.
We plan to go to the cementery and visit u tomorrow. It suppose to be today. But i told mom i really got to work. I guess you will understand that. I have so many loans to pay so i got to work.Some of our cousin with go with us tomorrow.
I really miss you kuya. I did cried last night thinking about you before i slept. I can still feel the pain in my heart. And in someway i still wish i do more for you. Sometimes i imagine that my wedding wont be like what i imagine it before. I always dream about it and i always dream you will be there. And that you will be the one of the people who will bring me to the airport. Sometimes i day dream about how you smile or how you look at me. It still break my heart and make me cry. I didn't go to the mall yet since you left. I really don't know how will i feel if i do. I don't know how will i feel too if i go to Angeles Pampanga. Cause it will remind me of you more.
For now i got to go cause i got to go back to work. I know you are happy now in gods hands together with Daddy. No pain and sadness. I wish god allow you to visit us today. Even just in my dreams. I do miss talking to you. and miss your jokes. I love you bro so much.
Love and Missing you,
Shiela
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Sorry been busy
Dear Kuya,
Hi kuya i know i haven't wrote you since i got my day off. I was planning to wrote to you when i got back to work but. I was so depress that day. I couldn't find a time to wrote to you. I know its not an excuse but i guess you do understand. If i couldn't wrote to you here it doesn't mean i forget about you. I always think about you. I'm just if i got my computer fix and back again at home i can wrote to u everyday. My day off when fine. I ever fix your cabinet. Mom was with me when i look at your stuff again. Its a good way of remembering you more. Mom didnt cry now, but you can see in her eyes that she still miss you. I just got my bonus too yesterday. Its was just a small amount but i did brought some gift for our sister and our cousin who live with us since u left. They did like it. I brought some food for our nephew Kyle too. You do know how he love fries and spaghetti. I did think about you all the way. I know if your still around you will like the gifts i will brought for you. I miss you bro. All the time. I talk to your girlfriend yesterday too on yahoo messenger. She did miss you too. She told me she still cry at night thinking about you. They will come here in the 29th for the mass for you.
Yesterday on my way at work i suddenly remember you. I was at the jeepney and i can feel that my tear are gonna fall. I just try not to cry but can't help it specially when it strike me that your totally gone and won't come back anymore. Kyle did keep on mentioning you last night. When my fiancee called he keep on saying it was you. I did wish it was you. I just wanna know how you been. But I'm sure you were fine and happy. No human need to think about and no more pain to deal with. My work is depressing sometimes. And plus Christmas is coming too. I don't know if i could pay auntie Nilda . I owe her some money and i did promise i will pay her this month. I honestly kinda worry what would she think if i couldn't pay her this month. I hope she wont get upset and understand that its really been kinda hard for me cause of all the expenses i got to pay.
A happy part of it is that my friend Ron is here. I guess his still in Boracay spending there vacation with hims family. Were planning to meet this Saturday. He said he will call. I will bring Kyle and his mom when i go to meet him. Ron wanna see Kyle too and Mylin. I did wish you could come with us. Ron mention before that he did was looking forward to meet you this time. But i know you be with us in spirit.
Well i got to end this for now. I got to go back to work. I'm sorry again. And I love you Bro always....
Love,
Shiela
Hi kuya i know i haven't wrote you since i got my day off. I was planning to wrote to you when i got back to work but. I was so depress that day. I couldn't find a time to wrote to you. I know its not an excuse but i guess you do understand. If i couldn't wrote to you here it doesn't mean i forget about you. I always think about you. I'm just if i got my computer fix and back again at home i can wrote to u everyday. My day off when fine. I ever fix your cabinet. Mom was with me when i look at your stuff again. Its a good way of remembering you more. Mom didnt cry now, but you can see in her eyes that she still miss you. I just got my bonus too yesterday. Its was just a small amount but i did brought some gift for our sister and our cousin who live with us since u left. They did like it. I brought some food for our nephew Kyle too. You do know how he love fries and spaghetti. I did think about you all the way. I know if your still around you will like the gifts i will brought for you. I miss you bro. All the time. I talk to your girlfriend yesterday too on yahoo messenger. She did miss you too. She told me she still cry at night thinking about you. They will come here in the 29th for the mass for you.
Yesterday on my way at work i suddenly remember you. I was at the jeepney and i can feel that my tear are gonna fall. I just try not to cry but can't help it specially when it strike me that your totally gone and won't come back anymore. Kyle did keep on mentioning you last night. When my fiancee called he keep on saying it was you. I did wish it was you. I just wanna know how you been. But I'm sure you were fine and happy. No human need to think about and no more pain to deal with. My work is depressing sometimes. And plus Christmas is coming too. I don't know if i could pay auntie Nilda . I owe her some money and i did promise i will pay her this month. I honestly kinda worry what would she think if i couldn't pay her this month. I hope she wont get upset and understand that its really been kinda hard for me cause of all the expenses i got to pay.
A happy part of it is that my friend Ron is here. I guess his still in Boracay spending there vacation with hims family. Were planning to meet this Saturday. He said he will call. I will bring Kyle and his mom when i go to meet him. Ron wanna see Kyle too and Mylin. I did wish you could come with us. Ron mention before that he did was looking forward to meet you this time. But i know you be with us in spirit.
Well i got to end this for now. I got to go back to work. I'm sorry again. And I love you Bro always....
Love,
Shiela
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Just busy but didnt forget you
Dear Kuya,
I wanna apologize for the two days i haven't wrote a letter to you. I was busy at work and updating the old personal blog i made long before. I decided to wrote u while i still having my break. For the last two days that past nothing much happened. Mom and the rest of the family were all k. We don't have electricity though. Theres a fire at the wet market near us that destroy the electricity post that were connected to. I hope the electricity company will fix is soon cause its been humid to sleep at night. And Kyle is complaining about it and was so bored cause he cant watch the television. Plus there been a robbery happening since the blackout has started. But don't worry about us. We always make sure the house is secure and our cousin Jun is staying with us so we can be safe. Its my day-off tomorrow so i guess i cant write a letter to u for two days. My computer is not fix yet so i don't have any ways of writing to you when I'm off at work. Next week will be the arrival of my friend Ron too. And two week to go and its Christmas. We wont be that happy like we used too when your here. We will all miss the time when we spend it together with you. We eat together. Plus you always requested your favorite dessert the Buko salad.
I guess i got to end the letter for today. My break time is off now so i got to go back to work. I been missing you bro. Been missing the good times we always share. I miss your laugh. Specially your joke. your a good joker, you do always makes me laugh. It still making me cry now just thinking about it. I really do miss you. I love you bro!!!!
Love,
Shiela
I wanna apologize for the two days i haven't wrote a letter to you. I was busy at work and updating the old personal blog i made long before. I decided to wrote u while i still having my break. For the last two days that past nothing much happened. Mom and the rest of the family were all k. We don't have electricity though. Theres a fire at the wet market near us that destroy the electricity post that were connected to. I hope the electricity company will fix is soon cause its been humid to sleep at night. And Kyle is complaining about it and was so bored cause he cant watch the television. Plus there been a robbery happening since the blackout has started. But don't worry about us. We always make sure the house is secure and our cousin Jun is staying with us so we can be safe. Its my day-off tomorrow so i guess i cant write a letter to u for two days. My computer is not fix yet so i don't have any ways of writing to you when I'm off at work. Next week will be the arrival of my friend Ron too. And two week to go and its Christmas. We wont be that happy like we used too when your here. We will all miss the time when we spend it together with you. We eat together. Plus you always requested your favorite dessert the Buko salad.
I guess i got to end the letter for today. My break time is off now so i got to go back to work. I been missing you bro. Been missing the good times we always share. I miss your laugh. Specially your joke. your a good joker, you do always makes me laugh. It still making me cry now just thinking about it. I really do miss you. I love you bro!!!!
Love,
Shiela
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Still Wishing your here
Dear Kuya,
I went to eat at one of the fast food nearby my office. While i was eating I remember you. I know the fastfood chain is one of your favorite. And i know you will be so happy if your with me. I do remember the day when i treat you.I always remember your smile while im eating. Your smile is always unique you show your dimples when you smile. Auntie Nilda always say that to me every time we talked about you. She always say that she always like your smile.I did order your favorite too. And think about you while i eat. I dont wanna cry while im eating so i just try to remember all the good things we have. The time we go to the mall and eat out side. Its still not the same without you. Every time i see your picture it makes me think how it is to have a day again knowing your not here now.
I talk to my friend Ron today. He told me that he was looking forward to meet you when he come here for a visit. He will give me his old PSP. I know you will like that. And you know i will let u play with it. We always love to play games. I guess thats one of the way we spend our time together before. We always talked about the games we play. And what level are we at already. And i know you always get higher level than me. Your good at it. Sometimes i even ask u for some hint on the games we did played before.
Its 5:48 now. 2 minutes more and i be on my way home. So i got to end my letter for now. I miss you bro.
Love,
Shiela
I went to eat at one of the fast food nearby my office. While i was eating I remember you. I know the fastfood chain is one of your favorite. And i know you will be so happy if your with me. I do remember the day when i treat you.I always remember your smile while im eating. Your smile is always unique you show your dimples when you smile. Auntie Nilda always say that to me every time we talked about you. She always say that she always like your smile.I did order your favorite too. And think about you while i eat. I dont wanna cry while im eating so i just try to remember all the good things we have. The time we go to the mall and eat out side. Its still not the same without you. Every time i see your picture it makes me think how it is to have a day again knowing your not here now.
I talk to my friend Ron today. He told me that he was looking forward to meet you when he come here for a visit. He will give me his old PSP. I know you will like that. And you know i will let u play with it. We always love to play games. I guess thats one of the way we spend our time together before. We always talked about the games we play. And what level are we at already. And i know you always get higher level than me. Your good at it. Sometimes i even ask u for some hint on the games we did played before.
Its 5:48 now. 2 minutes more and i be on my way home. So i got to end my letter for now. I miss you bro.
Love,
Shiela
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
A letter for someone who I will miss
Dear Kuya,
Hi bro! Its been 3 weeks since u left. I know right now your happy in the hands of God. I still do think about you most of the time. Specially now that Christmas is coming. I always do remember that we always celebrate it together. I know you do like this time of the year. You love the foods and the gifts. You know! me, mom, mylin (our sister) and our niece Kyle will going to miss you specially this coming Christmas. Thats one of the reason why i made this blog. So that i can have a place where i can write all the things that happening to my life and hoping that where ever you are right now, you will still read it. Every night i still do think of you. Reminiscing our times when were still kids. How you always depend me from all of the kids who bully me, even if your so thin and you will get hurt. And we do have a fight cause you don't like it when i play with your toys. How we always get spank together cause we always play outside even if its rest time. Remember the time when i got my first job. I got my salary and we watch movies together. Then i brought you a pair of sock for a cheap price but your still happy. And the time where we when to a River Fiesta and you almost get drown cause your just a rookie when it comes to swimming. And because of that incident you did learn how to swim. That one think i envy about you. I always wish i learn how to swim too like you. You always go to the Ilog Pasig River just to swim even if mom will spank you when u get back home. I always enjoy reminiscing those days. Most of them makes me smile. But in my heart i still feel the sadness. That your not here with us now. I know mom miss you too. and Kyle too. The first time he came back to the home after your funeral. He did look for you. Well his just 2 years old. Even if i explain it to him he won't understand yet. All he know is that your in another place far.
Don't worry about mom. I promise i will always take care of her. I know she's an old lady now. But she still a strong lady. I usually take her out when i can so she wont get bored at home. I brought a Dvd player for her to use. You know mom really love to watch movies like you and me. We always watch movies when i have my day off.
I hope you like this blog i made. With this i can express who much i love you. And how I'm missing you. I got to end my letter now. I don't wanna start crying again cause i know you don't like it when i get sad. Just remember i will always love you bro, we all are, and we always miss you.
Your Loving Sister,
Shiela
Hi bro! Its been 3 weeks since u left. I know right now your happy in the hands of God. I still do think about you most of the time. Specially now that Christmas is coming. I always do remember that we always celebrate it together. I know you do like this time of the year. You love the foods and the gifts. You know! me, mom, mylin (our sister) and our niece Kyle will going to miss you specially this coming Christmas. Thats one of the reason why i made this blog. So that i can have a place where i can write all the things that happening to my life and hoping that where ever you are right now, you will still read it. Every night i still do think of you. Reminiscing our times when were still kids. How you always depend me from all of the kids who bully me, even if your so thin and you will get hurt. And we do have a fight cause you don't like it when i play with your toys. How we always get spank together cause we always play outside even if its rest time. Remember the time when i got my first job. I got my salary and we watch movies together. Then i brought you a pair of sock for a cheap price but your still happy. And the time where we when to a River Fiesta and you almost get drown cause your just a rookie when it comes to swimming. And because of that incident you did learn how to swim. That one think i envy about you. I always wish i learn how to swim too like you. You always go to the Ilog Pasig River just to swim even if mom will spank you when u get back home. I always enjoy reminiscing those days. Most of them makes me smile. But in my heart i still feel the sadness. That your not here with us now. I know mom miss you too. and Kyle too. The first time he came back to the home after your funeral. He did look for you. Well his just 2 years old. Even if i explain it to him he won't understand yet. All he know is that your in another place far.
Don't worry about mom. I promise i will always take care of her. I know she's an old lady now. But she still a strong lady. I usually take her out when i can so she wont get bored at home. I brought a Dvd player for her to use. You know mom really love to watch movies like you and me. We always watch movies when i have my day off.
I hope you like this blog i made. With this i can express who much i love you. And how I'm missing you. I got to end my letter now. I don't wanna start crying again cause i know you don't like it when i get sad. Just remember i will always love you bro, we all are, and we always miss you.
Your Loving Sister,
Shiela
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